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Tuesday, November 30, 2010

難過的；不開心的；
一切盡在不言中；
又有誰會/能了解呢？
我正在等待知音人～
他/她又何時會去出現呢？

♥ 7:52 AM

Anyways..

Finally an Arokyy outing on the 28th Of Nov10..
Planned to meet at 1pm but as usual some were late etc..
Trained over to orchard our first destination..
Had lunch over at BK..

Ken was still sleeping when we met so therefore we met him after our lunch..
Walked around ion..
Not long after he had to leave as he had to book in..
Went over to Charles & Keith..
Saw bags that i fancy but had to walk to 3 outlets before getting it..
Most of them were OOS..
Dont know why but there were crowds at C&K at both ion & wisma but not at 313..
We then head over to PS & by that time it was already 9pm at night..
Took sometime walking there because my girls were busy taking pictures on the way..
Reached & they went to pasta mania for dinner which i didnt because i just didnt feel like eating..

&
After which regretted not buying gong cha when sy suggested before going for dinner..
It was closed when we wanted to buy..
Oh well..
No fate with gongcha & koi that day..
It didnt really go as what i've planned..
The plan of my last destination was bugis..
Plan was to get koi, gong cha & try taimei BUT
none of those happen..

At the end of the day..
Half happy half sad..
Happy that i bought a bag finally!
& a bag that is casual enough & formal enough for all occasions..
Sad that the plan didnt go well &.....
Well you girls know what is it about so i shall not elaborate much..
I didnt take much pictures that day so......

♥ 7:29 AM

Friday, November 26, 2010

241110
和老王一起去Jp走走。
到了那裡，本想說想走走才去吃晚餐。
的確是走了一會兒，走後還是去吃了。
吃了肯德雞，人多到不行。
清理盤子的人竟然在一旁埋怨了起來。
還對自己說人可以不要再來了嗎？
她還蠻靠近我們的啦所以才會聽到。
她也蠻怪的說。
我們的桌子垃圾好多但也沒有叫她來收。
可是她就瞄了瞄我們和桌子。
就默默的過來收走。
還擦了桌子，但她瓶子噴出來的水噴到了我的手。
自然反應就是擦去手上的水滴啊。
她卻很不爽的說這不是消毒水怕什麼?
哇！
我們從頭到尾一句話都沒說，幹嘛那麼兇啊？
真是奇怪有莫名其妙耶。
吃完了就到去走走。
很多店都關了，所以也沒什麼走到。
後來到了24小時的超市買了維他奶和一包快熟面就回家了。
但，
超累的。
也不知道在累什麼。
今天睡了一整天。
拍誰啦沒照片都是字。

♥ 2:00 AM

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

還有啊~
發現我說的一切的一切都不會有人理會！
好啊好啊。
就是要這樣對我就對了是不是!
沒關係~
你這樣對我我就這樣對回你！
你等等！
哼~
冷靜冷靜~

♥ 8:08 AM

做了點小小的更改。
但，
應該沒人會發現吧？
管它的~我開心就好！
今天開始，
或許每天我會上來做個小小段的更新！
讓部落格有點活力點。
不然好像有點安靜的說~

♥ 8:04 AM

Sunday, November 21, 2010

這裡變得好安靜。

我沒了動力。

我沒了靈感。

我沒了FU。

我不知道我可以寫些什麼。

或許我就該這樣讓它沉默下去吧。

♥ 7:45 PM

Friday, November 12, 2010

Have the feeling that the blogging trend around me have been going down recently..

Not much people are blogging anymore..

People dont view blogs as much as they use to..

Whats wrong?

Anyways..

The other day while having dinner at yewtee point received a brochure that the used to be sushi stall is changing to a steamboat stall..

Was tempted to wanna try it..

So decided to ask ym & sy if they wanted..

SO..

We went yesterday which is Thursday..

All i can say it's the worst steamboat that i have ever had!

So expensive somemore!

Still need to pay them service charge somemore when their service sucks!

Waiters are busy but not attentive nor professional enough..

Food sucks ttm..

Only thing that were edible were the pork, prawn & egg..

Thats all..

The soup sucks..

Too salty!

We ordered tomyum & chicken..

Tom yum didnt taste like tomyum at all..

It was just very sour..

Food were very very limited & all were frozen food..

Not fresh at all..

I can say the food that i ate didnt even worth the money i paid for..

Everything sums up to around $17++ per person..

All i can say it's not worth the try..

Really felt heart pain that there goes my money!!

Guilty too that i was the one who asked them to try..

Anyways..

Lesson learnt!

If possible let's make thursday our meeting day please! At least i get to see you girls once a week..
At least i get to go out once a week since i haven found a job yet..
SO PLEASE PLEASE!
Try to meet me on thursday alright!
XIAOGUI! <3

♥ 8:15 PM

Monday, November 08, 2010

常常想我活著的意義是什麼？
是為了什麼？
或許只是為了我的父母。
為了把我生下來的父母並非為了其他的事。
我真的覺得我就像是個行屍走肉的人。
我沒有靈魂我沒有生命。
我的心是死的。
但誰又知道呢？
說真的我活著的這21年，
是很沒有意義的在活著。
我沒有目標沒有夢想。
我甚至不知道自己要的是什麼。
我常問自己為什麼老天爺要讓我誕生在這世上。
我有什麼用？
我可以做什麼？
我又有什麼價值？
我始終找不到答案。
我嘗試著要樂觀。
可是，
真的很難
我說真的，
我21年來活著，
我沒有朋友。
只有到了中學結交到兩個死黨。
但，
她們有自己的生活要過。
我也知道她們需要自己的自由空間。
我總不能一直黏著纏著她們兩個不放吧？
她們大概也會覺得我很煩人。
覺的我不獨立。
覺得為什麼我老要她們的陪伴。
我說真的我真的覺得如果沒了她們我不會是現在的我。
我或許是個活在精神病院的一個等死的人。
我知道我常常需要別人的注意。
我希望得到別人的注意。
你。。。
又知道我什麼嗎？
生長在只有一個小孩的環境的我，
真的好寂寞。
或許常常看我歡笑著對你，
看著我笑著的樣子。
但你可知道那。。。
其實是偽裝出來的嗎？
父母和我之間的距離或許是有點打吧？
我並不是一個會和它們說我心事的人。
父母也就是父母。
我當然希望能報答它們的養育之恩。
我現在就像一艘在廣闊，沒有盡頭的大海裡迷失方向的一艘小小船。
那種徬徨，恐懼。。。
又有誰會知道？
我不知道我怎樣可以變的更好。
我不知道要怎樣才能讓大家喜歡我這個人。
做我自己嗎？
我一直都是我自己。
我到底是哪裡不好或是做錯了什麼讓我的人緣變得那麼不好。
讓我不討人喜歡。
是性格？是外表？是態度？
是。。。。。？
我這個迷失在大海的小船何時能找到讓它停靠的港口？讓它依賴的大船呢？

♥ 12:54 AM

常常覺的很寂寞。
寂寞的讓人覺得痛苦，
痛不欲生。
好羨慕那些擁有朋友的人。
我知道很多人說朋友不需要多，
好的兩三個就夠了。
我有好的啊。
可是就到此為止。
我21年的人生就只擁有那兩個朋友。
說真的夠嗎？
老實說不夠。當她們忙碌的時候，
當她們不在的時候，
當她們不能陪伴我的時候，
我。。。
又該怎麼辦？
我總不能依賴她們一輩子吧？
她們有她們自己要過的生活，
她們有自己的人生要過，
有自己的煩惱要顧及，
有自己的朋友。
我或許要只是她們朋友裡的冰山一角也不算什麼。
我總不能一輩子都依賴著她們吧？
常常有人說我就像是井底之蛙。
要這樣說也可以，
但也可以不這樣說。
我有工作的經驗，
我看到工作上形形色色的人，
它們的工作態度，
顧客，同事，上司。
我了解啊。
我也會玩樂。
但，
就是社交圈很小，小的可憐。
或許在別人眼裡我並不存在也並不重要。
或許是自己的外表讓自己感到自卑，
好羨慕那些跟我一樣但卻可以快快樂樂的生活的人。
我。。。
真的做不到。
我一直一直在嘗試的改變。
但有想想，
人為什麼那麼現實？
就因為不亮麗的外表所以朋友很少。
所以不要和我做朋友所以討厭我嗎？
難道不亮麗的我們就不是人我？
你知道我們的痛苦嗎？
你知道我們有多麼盡力要和你們所謂的“平凡人”一樣嗎？
為什麼就是要那麼的看低我們？
為什麼就不能像對待你們所謂的“平凡人”一樣的對待我們？
我們到底哪裡錯了？
我們也很盡力的改啊！
可是你們都不給我們這個機會。
為什麼要活的那麼痛苦？
為什麼？

♥ 12:52 AM

Sunday, November 07, 2010

What a pathetic blog i've got..
With only bob as the only one who is always tagging..
I doubt there are even ppl reading my blog..
Except for all those moron spammers..
Please i dont need you spammers to be here..
Just fcuk off from my blog please..

It's been one week since my last job..
Seriously i am again lazy to find another job like again..
I really hate going for interviews..
Hate to see the faces of those interviewers..
Who dont fcuking give a damn to my certs..
Life has been boring..
Or should i say it always have been this boring ever since i know what am i doing..
No friends, No life no nothing..
I know many people say you do not need many friends but only a few good ones..
I do have..
But isnt it better if you're social circle is bigger?
Or you get to know many different people from different lines etc..
I can say my social circle is really small..
I dont get to know new people especially when both buddies are still studying but im already working..
People i get to know are all aunties & uncles..
Not much of my age..

People always like to say that i am a frog underneath the well..
What can i say if this is how you see me?
How do i get to know people?
I cant be walking onto the streets & telling ppl hey please be friends with me right?
People might think that i am someone from IMH..
How do i get to mingle with different people?
I dont know..
Which i really wish to mingle with more people..
Get to know more people..
I want a bigger social circle..
I cant always be dependent on them..
They have their own life own friends..
Im sure they might be thinking why am i pestering them..
For 8 yrs..
I cant be doing so till i am old can i?
I also need to know more people..
Mingle with different people to gain more even more knowledge..
But how?
Thats the question..
People always tells me..
But actions speaks louder then words..
Dont only say..
It is of no use..

♥ 12:40 AM

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♥ 12:37 AM

Monday, November 01, 2010

Last day of worked ended very fast on the day itself..

I was asked to leave at around 9pm since it was my last day & there wasnt anything i can help with..

My colleagues bought me magnum although not a grand gift or what..

But i guess at least they have got the heart..

I dont know why but i was close with the cleaner whom i guess not much ppl would choose to be..

She is really a friendly lady..

Although she's a malay but we could get along will..

She was a little suprised that it was my last day that day..

It was because she wanted to invite me to her son's wedding..

I dont even know her son at all fyi..

She's really a nice lady..

Not really feeling very sad though..

What i hate is that i would need to find a job again..

Going for interviews is what i detest.. like seriously..

Why is it so difficult to find a job?

I dont know..

Anyways some random pictures i took..

♥ 2:00 AM