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Tuesday, November 27, 2007

I didnt get into wallet shop . I was like damn sad .
I dont know why i was so sad that i cried after i went back to my seat .
I just bursted out into tears when i sat down .
Maybe because thinking that the interview was fine and i had that little confidence .
BUT i didnt get in . They say that they wanted 5 ppl .
5 ppl went for the interview but only 1 got in .
WTH . I cant believe it .
I wasnt dishonest . I not proud or neither did i boost about what i had or whatever .
I just answered what the interviewer wanted me to .
BUT i still didnt get it .
I cry until i cant even speak when i called ym .
She asked what happened but i just couldnt speak and said that i'll call back later .
She knew i was crying . So she called huihuan and asked me to meet her and sy outside classroom .
I went out . The moment i saw them i cried even harder .
I DONT KNOW WHY .
Anyways . All persuaded me to go for Mintmark's interview .
So i went . With Lili .
It was at citylink .
The interview was ok . Just asked a few simple questions .
After which we went to IMM .
Lili wanted to ownself look for the attachment place .
Lili went off first . me and huihuan walked around .
Reached home quite long and lili called .
She say she called ang and ang told her that we 2 got in .
I was like . SO FAST?!
It was only a few hours before we had the interview and the results out .
I dont know if i want the job because of some reasons .
But i wouldnt have any left if i didnt choose this job .
WHAT SHOULD I DO????

Labels: FELT STUPID WHEN I CRIED

♥ 9:45 PM

Sunday, November 25, 2007

I AM SICK AGAIN !!!
Got school tomorrow .
AHHHH!!
So bored . there's exam on this coming friday and tomorrow .
Excel test tml and BEG on fri .
Both i didnt study . So i guess i am going to fail both .
Especially excel . I dont even listen to what ang teach during lesson time .
Who understands what she is teaching? no one i guess .
Hope i'll know how to do the test tomorrow . =(

♥ 11:41 PM

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Had school till 11 yst .
After having our lunch at school . waited for time to pass to meet lili and jolene to go for The wallet shop interview .
Met up at clementi and went together to marina square .
There were also many other people going for interview .
Filled up the forms as usual like any other interview .
Was interviewed by a guy . He interview the 5 of us and another girl which is also from our campus but is from the Jan intake .
After interview . the others had to rush for nike's interview .
So kirine huihuan and me stayed at marina .
Went to had lunch? with kirine and her stead and huihuan .
Walked around marina after that .
Waited until around 4+ i guess . or 5+ .
The 3 of us decided to go to Suntec first as we were to bored .
Walked around . lili and jolene finally came .
Went to eat with amy .
Finally went to visit her at her workplace which i keep wanting to go but didnt had the chance to go visit her .
After that amy had to go back to work .
So the 5 of us went to walk around suntec .
Went to buy donuts from donut factory .
My first time eating . OH GOD . it was nice . LOLS .
But i didnt buy any . huihuan treated me one and i bought 2 for amy .
After which we went home .
We were dead beat . lili and jolene took the green line . whereas we 3 took the red line .
Was a tired, fun and happy day .
Cause could see amy and had lots of fun joking around with the girls .
Anyways . hope that i could get into wallet shop . and hope that i would not get into tampiness mall . and and get a outlet that is near orchard .
So that i could meet up with huihuan and the guys if our timing matches and go home together .
OH . and wallet shop's break is only 1/2 hour .
Kind of short for some ppl .
But not for me . to me break is just for me to get a seat and rest . not eating .
I'll end here .
Update soon . =)
Take care all .

♥ 3:02 PM

Friday, November 23, 2007

Going for wallet shop interiew tomorrow .
Dont know if i can get in . if i cant . i guess i can add more cuts to my hands to the previous cuts i had the day before .
And I LOST THE DONATION CARD THAT ANG GAVE ME .
I cant find it anyway . Such a BIG card and i can lose it . WTH .
Guess i've got to tell ang that i cant give it to her tomorrow .
I'll just have to give it to her on Monday .
T.T .
Nothing much happened today so there's nothing to update .
I'll end my post here .

♥ 12:27 AM

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

I know i shouldnt have done it .
I know i shouldnt have cut myself .
I know its stupid .
I shouldnt have use the way even if i am upset or stress or whatever .
I know its not the only way to vent on .
But maybe to me .
It is .
Ok . i know its bad . It may leave scars on my hands .
BUT .
Somehow . ITs just my way of venting my anger or sadness .

♥ 10:18 PM

Had my interview at Isetan yesterday .
Went with the guys,kirine and huihuan .
Everything was fine . the one who interviewed us was friendly .
After she explained everything to us .
Kirine was actually quite confidence in herself .
Whereas me .
Nah .
I know i wouldnt get in . Well . as for why . i wouldnt say .
Anyways .
Like i expected . the results of the interview were out today . i didnt get in .
Aint disappointed .
Just maybe a little . because i cant get to work with them .
Cant lunch or cant go to work together . cant go home together .
I would be alone at other shops .
Far away from them .
Guess i'm gonna miss them lots .
The times we had in class . the fun we had . All those memories .
Anyways . Will be going for wallet shop's interview on Fri .
Hope i get in . HOPE i wont be posted to a far away outlet like TAMPINESS MALL !! .
That would be way too far for me .

♥ 10:11 PM

Monday, November 19, 2007

这是我们走在一起的第三个夏天
聊起我来还那么肤浅
总爱对人炫耀我的微笑有多么甜
却不曾看到我另一面
我喜欢冬天喜欢音乐喜欢冒险
别总以为
你爱的就是全世界
我只好偷偷藏起
第二个自己
没关系对你毕竟没有意义
我愿为你去学习
忘记自己
继续努力活得鲜明安定
是否会再理解不再爱我的那一天
我已经换了陌生的一面
原来可以因为爱上一个人而改变
还要求自己不改那一面
我其实任性其实爱哭其实腼腆
是你以为你了解我的全世界
我只好偷偷藏起
第二个自己
没关系对你毕竟没有意义
我愿为你去学习
忘记自己
继续努力
就活得鲜明安定
我只好偷偷藏起
第二个自己
没关系对你毕竟没有意义
我愿为你去学习
忘记自己
继续努力就活得鲜明安定

♥ 12:49 AM

束一个马尾束起所有伤悲
不许有后悔在我眼前乱飞
女生的柔美只有自信能给
这秒钟不想爱也不想谁
将照片撕毁以为就会ok
为何有泪水钻进我枕头内
上天爱捣鬼爱将我给连累
下雨时不能吃也不能睡
是与非的对垒
爱得我好气馁好疲惫
可恶的是道别的嘴说的誓言在我耳边萦回
仿佛你只须静静看我一眼
就能够解读我爱你这弱点
思念太明显还是你太危险
比我更了解我心田
仿佛我只须轻轻地闭上眼
就看透我们有默契这一点
思念再不减我愿意冒个险
请你瞧离痊愈有多远
故事的结尾我说过无所谓
为何有泪稀释我的latte
天又不作美情绪会被拖累
像没有客人的街角cafe
是与非的对垒
爱得我好气馁好疲惫
可恶的是道别的嘴说的誓言在我耳边萦回
仿佛你只须静静看我一眼
就能够解读我爱你这弱点
思念太明显还是你太危险
比我更了解我心田
仿佛我只须轻轻地闭上眼就看透我们有默契这一点
思念再不减我愿意冒个险
请你瞧离痊愈有多远
仿佛你只须静静看我一眼就能够解读我爱你这弱点
思念太明显还是你太危险
比我更了解我心田
仿佛我只须轻轻地闭上眼就看透我们有默契这一点
思念再不减我愿意冒个险
请你瞧离痊愈有多远

♥ 12:44 AM

我一个人徘徊在我们的海
闭上眼我还记得那一天看见的蓝
爱距离也分不开
你送的贝壳还在呼唤
在耳边答应要给我未来
那一天手心里的爱
我放不开
等一个人多么孤单我一分钟又一分钟在忍耐
握紧了手心里的爱
我勇敢了起来
当你回来的时候我一定要跟你说
别再走开
我跟寂寞在比赛等你带我
手牵手一起去看全世界最美的海
泪不可以掉下来
我学着向日葵抬起头
等待着最亲爱的你回来
抱着我称赞我的勇敢
那一天手心里的爱
我放不开
等一个人多么孤单我一分钟又一分钟在忍耐
握紧了手心里的爱
我勇敢了起来
当你回来的时候我一定要跟你说
别再走开
贝壳握在手心静静的变得温暖
就像是握住一点点答案
那一天手心里的爱
我放不开
等一个人多么孤单我一分钟又一分钟在忍耐
握紧了手心里的爱
我勇敢了起来
当我祈祷的时候天使都不在
当我痛苦的时候也只好习惯
当你回来的时候我一定要跟你说
别再别再走开

♥ 12:39 AM

Went to VIVO today . Wore that new stupid heels . That made our 3 feets hurt .
We wanted to buy a make-up pouch . but couldnt even find it even though we went all the way to VIVO . or should i say Harbourfront centre .
We had lunch at BANQUET .
Walked around . But mostly we were finding seats . as our legs hurts .
Dont know if it is due to not being used to it or it is our legs problem or the shoes problem .
AND oh GOD .
I've got to wear that heels for my formal wear day .
How can i tolerate that pain?
We nearly couldnt walk back home today .
Afraid that we wouldnt have seats on mrt .
We took the train to marine bay and all the way back to yew tee and cck .
Finally sy and ym bought their formal wear . Some cosmetics .
I bought nothing !!
I needed nothing .
All bought . or can i say nearly .
So i didnt really spent much other then on eating . =X .
Back to school tomorrow .
If i'm not wrong . would be having an interview on the 20th Nov . For either Isetan or The Wallet Shop .
I chose this 2 for attachment . Huihuan too .
The other chinese also did chose Isetan and The Wallet Shop .
Really hope that we could work at the same place .
So we could lunch and go home together .
I dont like the feeling of a new enviroment and the feeling of going back home alone .
I like company . Not alone . =P
AND AND i dont want to be posted to a far far away place .
The wallet shop has an outlet at tampiness mall .
Oh god .
Please dont let me get into that outlet .
It would be the best if we chinese could get into Isetan at Scotts and Orchard . =)
Exams coming soon too .
OIT and BEG .
Hope i'll do well for it .
I've missed too much lessons for this both modules .
Got to stop here .
I'm so long winded .
Take care all . =)

♥ 12:26 AM

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Going to VIVO city tomorrow .
Anyways . actually dont really feel like going out . Just feel so bored .
Hmm . did not go out today . So i guess there is nothing for me to update .
So i'll end here . =)

♥ 10:23 PM

Friday, November 16, 2007

I'M SICK !!!
I've lost my voice .
Well . anyways . its not a big deal .
School's been fine?
Had the make up lesson on Wed .
Met up with huihuan, lili and kirine at Yew Tee mrt . After which took to somerset and walked to orchard building .
I wasnt as fun as i thought it was .
After which all of us separated . Me and huihuan went around orchard shopping for her formal wear while waiting for ym and sy .
After that we waited for sy and ym at heeren .
We went to buy formal shoes .
AND we 3 again bought the SAME PAIR !! .
Its not the first time we bought the same things .
We have the same sling bag, wallet , the formal shoes and lots more same things .
We went shopping around .
Reached home around 7pm .
Thursday had to go to SIMEI ite for the career fair .
THE SCHOOL'S HUGE .
We had lunch at the foodcourt also their canteen there .
Went to the career fair last minute .
Did not see much things and had to meet our teacher to head back to school .
Reached school and had to continue having lessons .
BORED !!! .
After lessons headed home alone by mrt .
A tiring day . Today was a short day .
Had lesson from 9-11 . Amy came to class because she had to see ANG .
Hahas .
Its been a long time since i last saw her since she went for her attachment .
She's still as cute as before .
Hahas .
Ok .
Got to end here .
Take care all . =)

♥ 7:08 PM

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Ages since i had a proper post .
Well .
Finally finished a tough war .
Exams are over .
Results will be the next thing to worry about .
Anyways .
School has been quite slack recently .
Finally i am going back to school offically .
BUT .
My CA .
Told me not to absent myself anymore and blah blah blah .
AS IF I WISHED TO ABSENT MYSELF FROM SCHOOL .
I took leave and had an MC .
As if i PON school .
You were the one who told me to take leave for my exams .
And now you are like blaming me for not absenting myself .
What rubbish is that .
Keep asking me to hand up work do these do that .
But you did not teach or gave me instructions to do .
I've not come to school for so long how can you expect me to know what you are saying about?
Its not that the class hates you .
But your every move makes us feel irritated .
You are not responsible at all .
I've got nothing to update .
I'm having a boring and dull life .
Who cares about me?
I've got nothing that people want to know .

Labels: emotional

♥ 8:06 PM

Friday, November 09, 2007

Why should i still bother updating ?

Why should i care about others when not even a single soul gives a damn about me ?

Why should i bother about others when no one even want to bother about me ?

WHY? WHY? WHY?

♥ 8:16 PM

Monday, November 05, 2007

Decided to isolate myself .
Nothing helps .
I've tried letting myself not thinking on the negative side .
Thinking the positive way .
But things still goes wrong .
Nothing is getting any better .
People still hates me .
People still critise me .
People still bad mouth me .
People still dislikes me .
So what if my attittude is good .
Looks is everything .
Figure is everything .
Who cares if one has good character?
Who cares if one is good hearted ?
No one .
LOOKS EVERYTHING TO ALL .
I'll still stay negative .
I'll still would have the thinking of sliting myself .
When i am down .
These thoughts still come to me .
Yes .
Others may be more worse off then me .
But i am still not any better .
Stop telling me to think positive . when it is YOU who makes me these way .
But i dont blame YOU entirely .
Because its my fault that i look these way .
Who doesnt want to change ?
If i could change so easily .
I wouldnt be who i am today .

♥ 9:26 PM

Saturday, November 03, 2007

Will update soon?
Mayb not?
Who bothers if i update or i dont update .

♥ 5:24 PM