我已經不知道該要怎麼維持這個空間了。
怎麼辦?
對了。
夜晚是最好的時刻來聽聽一些比較悲傷的音樂。
情緒也跟著歌曲一起down。。
我的人生是要怎樣,
我自己要不知道。
我不知道我要的是什麼。
這樣是好是壞?
我對人生一點熱忱都沒有。
唯一能夠讓我開心的也只有他。
可是,
他畢竟是個遙不可及的人。
我們永遠不可能在同一條平行線上。
不會有任何的交際。
近年來,
自從離開了學生的生活。
我說寫的講的想的都是黑暗的。
難道我真的應該繼續唸書嗎?
活著的意義是什麼我也不知道,為了自己?
為了父母?
為了朋友?
為了什麼?
人生真的對我沒有意義了嗎?
我真的不知道我到底要的是什麼。
有沒有人可以告訴我應該怎麼辦?
Labels: 我的人生只有灰色空間
♥ 4:03 AM
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Met up with ym at yewtee platform..
Trained all the way to somerset..
Arrived & went over to scape to take a look & there were already alot of people..
Thinking that he wouldnt arrive so early so we went over to cineleisure for lunch & bk..
After bk it was around 2+ & therefore we went back to scape..
After awhile he finally came..
Stage cap, tee, pants..
帥慘了!
Stayed there till around 4plus & had to leave because my camera totally run out of battery..
Taiwan cousin & my other relatives were at 313..
Went over to meet them at a cafe..
Had some drinks & cheesecake..
Soon after left my cousin & my relatives to meet up with sy & ray..
Ym had to left to marina square & in the meantime ken came..
After which we walked around 313 & waited for ym to come..
Went over to Marche for dinner..
The queue was really long..
Total bill was 100+ & it was ken's treat!
Promised to treat him back another time!
After which went over to scape again as sy didnt get to go there earlier..
STAGE was still open & ppl were still queuing up to buy things..
But mostly were sold out..
Walked around slacked there & trained home..
Pictures i took were cmi because of the reflection of the light on the glass of his shop..
Cant really see anything therefore i decided not to post them up..
&
this post becomes a wordy post!
Sorry guys!
♥ 4:28 PM
今天能夠看到你我真的真的很高興。
距離上一次見面,已有7年那麼久了。
不知為何,
我們要說熟也受不上熟。
受不熟也不能說不熟因為你是我的親戚啊。
可是看到你就有種我們很熟的感覺,雖然分隔兩地。
但我看到你和外婆聊天的樣子不知為何,
突然的鼻酸,
淚就不由自主的流下。
真害怕被人看到。
這股莫名的感動不知為何會出現。
當你和外婆離別的時候,
外婆說的那句話更讓我再度的鼻酸,
淚已在眼裡打轉。
那句話是我最不想聽到的。
我知道外婆看到你真的很開心。
如果是哥哥來的話,
外婆應該會更開心。
最後,
真的很開心你回來。
知道你還是很想念新加坡。
也勾起了小時候我們一起玩樂的回憶。
時光飛逝,
你我都長大了。
看到你我真的真的很開心!
你會台灣之後我,
應該會很想你!
♥ 4:02 AM
Wanted to change a blogskin but couldnt find one that i really like..
Thinking there maybe changing of blogskin might motivate me to blog more..
The longer i dont update the more i feel like a stranger to blogger..
Whenever i open the page..
All i have in mind is blank..
Or should i say i dont even know how should i start writing..
I have already lost touch in blogging..
Which i dont know if it's good or bad thing..
I know i haven been updating..
Life has been so-so..
Work is all i've been doing..
Even if im not working..
I am also only slacking at home..
Becoming a couch potato!
All i can say is life's really getting tiring for me..
I feel so tired..
NOT that kind of tired that i can get back after sleeping for 3 days 3 nights..
NOT that kind of tired that once i have enough rest i can get it back..
It's almost saying "HEY! I'm tired of life!"
Anyways..
I shall try really hard to get back to blogging IF i can..
So stay tuned!
To those that do view my blog..
Give me some motivation PLEASE!
Give me some comments on my tagboard!
I need them to motivate me to continue blogging too!
Till then............
♥ 3:00 AM
我真的非常需要透透氣!
快憋死了!!!
Someone bring me out PLEASE!!!
♥ 11:54 PM